Thoughts

 Hello! It's Monday evening and glad to tell you that, we got some sunshine today, just enough to dry my clothes. That's a win, I'd say! So, this is gonna be my second blog, YAy😊

Well, I write poems and they are just my random thoughts. They aren't great or anything but I continue to write them because I feel like I can express myself by writing poetry better. Personally, writing a poem,  does not consume much time. I just start with some random two lines that are stuck to my head and build the rest of it. Sometimes nobody understands what I'm trynna say and that's alright. As I told you, I easily get bored and as writing poems do not require a lot of time, it's easy for me to focus and get it done quickly. I am still learning and have a lot to improve. improve and I am working on it. Also, things I write may be related to me maybe not. 

The foam's rushing up

The waves rolling up

The mild wind brushing my face

Directing me to the sunlight

Yellowish orange glow

Swiping the sand lustrously

I watch them in silence

I watch as there's no future

As there are no hopes

I sigh and laugh at myself

Why am I even here?

I usually get this feeling that I have lived enough and it is kinda overwhelming sometimes. I always question my existence and  think, "Do I even belong here?" It is so hard to meet the expectations of the society and right now I ain't even worried about it. Getting a job, making good money, having a beautiful family are not my priorities, I just wanna live a peaceful life. I mean in order to have that I should have some kinda job and have money in order to survive, right? Ugh...Life is tough.

I hate responsibilities, but I am living with them. As the eldest child of the family, I've already been burdened with responsibilities that I never asked for and I guess that is life. You can't just throw them and leave saying that you had enough because You are tied up to them. You are tied up with the feeling that if you are unable to fulfill them you have to live with guilt for the rest of your life. Attachments could be really sickening, but that is how we roll as human beings, right? 

Anyway, though I question why am I here, I am grateful that I am here. I have been gifted with the most amazing people who always got my back and I could not ask for more. So I should value this dear life and most importantly, value my people who got my back.